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I still sleep with the lights on
the nightmares haunt my subconscious
I remember vividly and accounted for everything
Doesn't seem such a valid point of entry
Childhood at this point seems as scarce as terrorists
Hidden agendas act so frivolous
I remember how he touched me made me bothered
soiled and coddled my very reality
anomalistically i am taunted and he comes after me
still so vividly in my dreams as years past like waters
watercolors overflow from victimless brushstrokes
how do i wallow in yesterdays tomorrows
secrets that plagued me even my brother touched me
and i thought that it wasn't happening make it go away
nightmares capture reactions of untrained actors
and after that the babysitters grandson had his way with me
how powerfully i was made unsuitable and melancholy
by that time i was nine years old and already was a whore
had to adore being forced to sell myself short
there is pain in this art form of being a martyr
years later it seemed a routine but this time i would scream
not keep the anguish hidden and cry in the rain so no one would see
not only me i kept my little friends secret how her dad touched her
made her feel she was saving a marriage that had no business saving
he told her she was doing what mommy couldn't
how does a nine year old have that conception duress
already under developed and perplexed
that maybe she wouldn't be accepted by the others
all i have to do is remember the terror and the anger
bitterness swallows my tender heart
after all that i couldn't feel love
since love began as unrequited
and ended despite its better preparation
so simple questions painted candid chronicles
because eventually boils crust over and wounds heal
but childhood and its zeal goes out the window
and they wonder i kept my daughter from having a father
he would of been poison and i just couldn't see it happen 2 her
and i sleep with the lights on......
the nightmares haunt my subconscious
I remember vividly and accounted for everything
Doesn't seem such a valid point of entry
Childhood at this point seems as scarce as terrorists
Hidden agendas act so frivolous
I remember how he touched me made me bothered
soiled and coddled my very reality
anomalistically i am taunted and he comes after me
still so vividly in my dreams as years past like waters
watercolors overflow from victimless brushstrokes
how do i wallow in yesterdays tomorrows
secrets that plagued me even my brother touched me
and i thought that it wasn't happening make it go away
nightmares capture reactions of untrained actors
and after that the babysitters grandson had his way with me
how powerfully i was made unsuitable and melancholy
by that time i was nine years old and already was a whore
had to adore being forced to sell myself short
there is pain in this art form of being a martyr
years later it seemed a routine but this time i would scream
not keep the anguish hidden and cry in the rain so no one would see
not only me i kept my little friends secret how her dad touched her
made her feel she was saving a marriage that had no business saving
he told her she was doing what mommy couldn't
how does a nine year old have that conception duress
already under developed and perplexed
that maybe she wouldn't be accepted by the others
all i have to do is remember the terror and the anger
bitterness swallows my tender heart
after all that i couldn't feel love
since love began as unrequited
and ended despite its better preparation
so simple questions painted candid chronicles
because eventually boils crust over and wounds heal
but childhood and its zeal goes out the window
and they wonder i kept my daughter from having a father
he would of been poison and i just couldn't see it happen 2 her
and i sleep with the lights on......
Literature
A Haiku
Light well past Midnight
full moon glow, lamp post bright, or
Netflix Marathon
Literature
Poems
Once in an era ship sailed beyond
They sank below the eternal blue
And their mark would be left
As the eternal blue grew so did the mark
Once in a lifetime story are told
Their story was what left of them
The eternal touch they left for us
Untold truth remembered for Tomorrow
Remembered mistake kept for tomorrow
Keeping away the waiting beast
If the beast awake soon death follow
Keeping keys locked and answers be lost
Literature
on the cusp
it is just that when i let go of you
when i let go
it's hard to remain that perfect without you.
--
the in-between of love, buds- so full of potential
our love is written in whispers on the pages
of a book which has not yet been opened.
--
that day, the sun had erased the last lines
of an unforgiving winter from my skin, i was renewed
olive skinned and feeling as if i had just fled the eternal
garden naked as i came- free, fallen.
--
the sky was dark;
nothing but the blood red smile of the moon
cut through the transient darkness of the night.
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